When I’m busy, stressed, down, tired or disappointed, I always go to my music playlist to lift up my spirit. Whenever life throws rocks instead of lemons back at me, I make sure to listen to these songs so I can just build a house made of rock, and become stronger than ever before.
The past month have been very busy for me, emotionally and spiritually. Last August 28, four of my closest friends in church died after crossing the Tarlac river. They just finished their outreach mission of teaching the kids of the Aeta community about Jesus that time. Unfortunately, rains poured down and the water level increased significantly that they were caught off guard and died afterwards. It was an emotional time for me and my friends as we mourned for their loss.
Even though we experienced the loss of our dear friends, I appreciate the fact that we were not alone in this ordeal. My friends and churchmates were in this together. It gave us pain just thinking of Nadette, Yasmin, Rocky and Reyvin who would not be here to share to us God’s love and their walk with God. On the flipside, we are encouraged because we know that our friends are now with Jesus in heaven.
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
John 1: 12-13
Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.
Let me share a chapter of my love story.
Ten years ago, I was a gal innocently going through the motions of life. I was a high school student, A lister, a nerd (as they say) and just a normal looking person who is wishing for a God-written love story. But the world has its way of teaching us what love is – contrary to what the Bible teaches us in 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8 (CEV):
Love is patient and kind, never jealous, boastful, proud, or rude.
Love isn’t selfish or quick tempered. It doesn’t keep a record of wrongs that others do. Love rejoices in the truth, but not in evil.
Love is always supportive, loyal, hopeful, and trusting.
Love never fails!
I remember my teacher in my Christian Value’s class talking about the three (3) types of love: Eros, Phileos and Agape. Eros – emphasizing on physical love, Phileos – characterizing love of a friend and/or family, and Agape – which allows us to see unconditional love (an example would be Jesus ^_^). That time, I just want to experience Agape, never fully knowing what the other two may really mean. As time goes by, I come to experience and see the difference of each.
I am just an ordinary girl with no idea about crushes and love. I am consumed with studying, and improving myself as a person. Back then, I hate make up and dressing up. Instead, I find comfort with jeans. It was when I was in third year college that I felt this weird feeling of admiring the opposite sex, feeling giddy just to see him and sometimes getting so tongue-tied when in front of him. Every morning, I would think of him, and every night, I would dream about him. More on the physical type of love, and before I knew it, I had already fallen in love with him.
The danger of this one was that it was rooted in admiration of physical attributes. We became friends, and eventually, became lovers. We were so consumed with each other that we rarely had time to focus on ourselves, and other things important to our life. Eventually, we separated and I was left heartbroken. I was left wondering what went wrong, and if I had chosen wrong.
Time passed by and the search for someone to be with me forever never really left my heart. I focused on other things for the mean time — academics, work, family and friends. They say being single is a gift from God because this is the season where we can give back your talents to our Creator and allow us to enjoy our relationship with Him before our relationship with the one whom He chooses. They are right, because being single allowed me to realize so many things about myself — my likes and dislikes, how I adjust with people and problems, and most especially how I apply what I learned to new things that happen to me. This season is a gift, and I am forever thankful for it.
However, there will still come a time when one would want to enjoy life with someone by their side. I am at that season. But I also know that my God is a big God who knows my needs (and my wants) and I know He will deliver at that right time. It is very hard on my part as I know I am burning with desire to marry, but then, I also know, that if I am not able to enjoy every single moment of my life alone, I also won’t be able to enjoy it with someone else.
Waiting on God is very hard, I can assure you, but it is also a test of faith. A test of patience. A test of trust to the One who will give me that loving person. I am at this time of my life when God prunes a certain part of me because I am impatient and I am a complainer. I am thankful for the web where I can share my thoughts and the thought that I am not alone — that somewhere, someone else feels the same way as I do gives me encouragement. I know I am still a work in progress and this point of my life might be very important for the upcoming season where I’ll enjoy being with God’s choice for me. I don’t know what God thinks, but one thing is for sure – whatever is happening to me right now is what He thinks is the best for me. Maybe, someday, I’ll be spending the rest of my life with my other half, just like this couple below.
So now, maybe we’re on the same boat and you are waiting on God. You might not be waiting for someone special, but you are waiting for God’s provision, or His answer to a specific prayer. My thoughts on that — still, wait on God. He might be lengthening the time being because He wants us to be patient, to trust Him, to have faith in Him more. Whatever that is, remember you’re not alone. We are on the same boat and just believe (as I do right now) that whatever we are waiting for, He is working on it and working something great on us. Just believe. 🙂
One thing I learned about love in the past ten years is this: Love is patient, love is kind. It isn’t selfish or quick tempered. It is always hopeful, and trusting. Love never fails. Even if my first love failed to make me happy, true love will never fail to encourage and give lasting happiness. That is what I learned in the past ten years — that is, love rooted in the physical attributes of this world will never last, but the love rooted in God will last forever and I am willing to wait on that no matter what I feel right now.
It is faith that enabled me to accept a job at GenSan, and it is also faith that allowed me to bring my familyback to the place where I met my father and had my prayer answered.
Just a few days ago, my threesome family just got here in GenSan for some relaxation from a stressful week. We had a lot of time meeting our relatives and checking out the dock station where all the tuna arrives from the sea.
My stay in Gensan is one whole lot of fun! I’d be posting a feature soon on the place as the tuna capital of the country. Stay tuned!
I keep on asking, “Why are easter eggs so popular during the Easter Sunday? Isn’t Easter Sunday about Jesus being raised from death?” Until now, I don’t have answer to this question but one thing is for sure, Easter Sunday won’t be the same without Jesus rising from the dead.
For me, I value Easter Sunday than Maundy Thursday nor Good Friday. Ok, it’s important that Jesus died on the cross for one reason, because He loved us no matter what, even if it means He’ll die on the cross. But the essence of dying on the cross becomes bleak if he was not raised to life.
Why? What does it mean? Jesus died on the cross to save us from sin.
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
– John 3:16
But His death doesn’t mean anything and is not powerful enough if He was not raised to life.
“For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living.”
– Romans 14:9
God has plans for each of us. He has plans for Jesus.
Only that if I were Jesus, I don’t want to sacrifice myself for other people. Why? Because I’m only human and I’m selfish. I want only what’s good for me and this is my nature. But Jesus, as the Lord who loves us unconditionally and willing to give up His life for our good, accepted God’s plans, no matter how hard it is for Him.
Each person is on the crossroads of their lives right now. May it be for career, family, love or religion, each and everyone of us has situations to conquer. But God has plans for us. We may not know it, but we are assured that those plans are for our ultimate good.
As we contemplate the value of today’s celebration, may we not forget that we are not only given a time for family gatherings and rest from our own priorities but
definitely, we are given a Savior who validates and assures us that anything on
this world is temporary; that through Him, through His resurrection, our faith will not waver and we have a chance for eternal life.
Death. Resurrection. Faith.
Three important words to meditate on today’s celebration.