My Love Letter to FL p2

Dear Future Lover, 
How are you tonight?

You know, I’ve been missing you even if I don’t know you yet. But nevertheless, I have been enjoying my life so far. 🤗👊

In the previous years, I have been asking God for contentment and a change of heart for my career. Do not get me wrong. I love what I do but projects and the dream of going abroad to study had consumed me for the past three years that I just look forward for the future, not realizing I have not been living in my present reality. But through God’s grace, He allowed me to stay at my current company even after being rejected for scholarships and not regret after all. 💟

Just these past weeks, I have been in Visayas and Mindanao for work, doing what I love — sharing about new technologies and elearning, training teachers and learning more about my industry. I have traveled from one place to another, and my colleagues are all a joy to work with. Only lately that I realized I have been blessed in my career.

So, when I meet you,  I’ll make sure to tell you all about my work, and what we do to make a difference in the area of education. I’ll be sharing about the places we’ve been to, and the smiles of the students and teachers we’ve trained. I’ll be bringing you pasalubong every time we’ll go out of town, because I know you’ll be ecstatic to receive a gift from me. I know that once we meet, it would be a joy to share to you my travel experiences, and hopefully, someday, I get to travel with you as well.

For now, I’ll document all the ups and downs of my career because I know, you’ll have a glimpse of how I work and enjoy life at the same time. I’m keeping tabs at how I live my life — making sure I enjoy the blessings God has given me so I’ll be contented just as what God says and I’ll be sharing how God has provided enough for me. I know, when that time comes that we’ll be together, we’ll be sharing all about our faith and how God has been so good to us during the waiting season of our lives. 

For now, I’ll just wait for you and enjoy life to fullest. God has given me enough to be thankful, and yet, I know, when I meet you, God has answered my prayer for an overflowing blessing to love and be loved in return.
And so, Future Lover, I’m looking forward to meeting you soon! For the mean time, I hope you enjoy life as well as I am enjoying mine. 😁😆😍🤗

Sincerely, 

Yza 😘

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Thoughts Jumbled, Emotions On High

This week was a very busy and emotional week. I have been in argument with my sister for things uncontrollable, and with her saying words that hurt, I felt those words pierce my heart tenfold. I felt angry, hurt and broken. But things turned around and I realized I was selfish. In my heart, I’ve decided to forgive her for words she said.

But then tonight, we again had an argument. This time, she did not only said words that hurt me, but also my mom. We just arrived from travel and was a bit tired, but when we got home, she was there, ranting about things she could have done herself. Her argument came to the point that we are selfish and we didn’t take into consideration her needs. I was pissed.

I really can’t fathom why there are people who cannot say what they want to say in nice way. Why is she disrepectful to people older than her? Why can’t she be thankful enough? Why, of all people, is she my sister?

I am angry at her, and felt broken by the words she said. When the disciples asked how many times do we forgive other people, Jesus said, “seventy times seven”. Seriously?!

But then, I remember how I sinned against God. I’ve done things that hurt Him. I’ve questioned my purpose. I’ve doubted His existence. I’ve rebelled and chosen the wrong way. But He still loved me. He still accepted me. He still chose to send His Son Jesus to die for me. Jesus chose to be crucified on the cross, so that I can be saved. He loved me so much so that someday, I can be with Him.

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When I remember my past, what I have done and what Jesus has done for me, I melt again. That anger in me melts away. It is not by my might that I can forgive. It is by the grace of the Lord that I realize how to love and forgive. His unfathomable love melts away everything. Then, I repent. I have decided to forgive again. Just as Jesus said. “Seventy times seven”.

It’s not easy. But only through His grace can we do it. His love overwhelms.

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